Easter Sunday

the weekend is done...so much work for 1 dinner...it was real fun visiting with lil sister and her girls. the largest dog came too..suzie is so gentle -yet large.....she emits tinyness from her personna...we cooked a raging meal between the two of us. all my girls were here except for lacie..she was with nana...my mommason; Q-Tip; the wine-drinkin-chain smokin marlboro lite model of the 2000's...i pick up lacie tomorrow..her cats have been nice to me..they are truly desperate....can't wait to crawl in my brand new king size bed and crash...waiting to hear from lila that she made it home safely.......people scare me....i worry anyway..the worrying doesn't interfere-but i could easily let it if i was weak..i worry about job security even though i'm a nurse..i worry about my baby hailey doing something really stupid and changing her life forever-because of crazy actions....i think about crazy shit when i'm sitting in traffic..i sometimes get freaky when we're at a standstill in traffic that someone from the other opposite lane will jump the guardrail and smash into me head on....i hate being stuck in tunnells-that freaks me...i don't like to come to a halt on a bridge; i can control these thoughts yet i do drift around in thought...i worry about my mom and her ending..i hope i can make it very comfortable for her. i have plans for that period-i just hope i don't break when i realize she is finally gone....i miss my daddy a lot-i don't remember telling him how much he meant to me...i hope he knows.........i try to be a good person and help all that i can..i am judgemental though.....i do try to calm that....i love my animals so much...i wish i could have a household full of them/or a barn load of them.....when its my time-i hope i get rewarded....i have been blessed with a good man-even though he aggravates the shit out of me-and with 3 great daughters.....i'm going to stop bitching and moaning and finish picking up my house........talk soon.......LOU